Almost a month ago I applied for another FYEG seminar. This one will take place in Zagreb, Croatia from the 11th to the 14th of april and will deal with different questions concerning LGBTQ*. In fact it took me so long to blog my application that I have heard back from the prep team already and I can gladly announce that I get the chance to participate in yet another awesome FYEG seminar. I am really looking forward to it! There is a blog set up that will be updated all year long summing up what happens at the seminars and also distributing some other information about the series. Make sure to check it from time to time if you are interested - http://queeringgreens.wordpress.com/
During this first seminar we want to discuss the academic and activist dimension of Queer Theory. We want to assess questions such as: What does it mean to “be gay or Lesbian”? How is it connected with broader concepts such as sexuality, identity, bodiness etc.? How can we as Greens address LGTBQ as a Human Rights issue? — fyeg.org
There actually will be three seminars working on this topic. One in April, one in September and another on in November or December. I’m totally going to apply for all three of those. I you want to know why, go ahead and read my application.
What is your motivation to apply to this seminar?
(I know this application is longer then it should be – but I have a lot of motivation! So I really hope you will read it all, enjoy it and then admit me to the seminar!)
For me there are three main reasons to apply for this FYEG Trilogy. (If possible I’d like to attend all three parts).
First of all there is a personal aspect – reflecting my own gender has been an essential part of my personal development over the last one, maybe two years. I grew up believing to be “just normal”. I remember a 9 year old Armin telling a girl from elementary school “I really like you”. I continued exploring my sexuality, developing my identity but always without really reflecting, questioning it. At some point I realized that there was more out there then I had considered for myself so far (bi, poly, transgender, homo). And since then the questions of who I am? Do I really know what I like (in bed, love and life)? Should I try more? were up to discussion and became open questions. I want to dig more into this topic because it is relevant for my own personal, very private life. I want to know more about the underlying theories and different concept(ion)s of gender and sexuality. A dynamic, open and focused group of young europeans seems like the perfect place to reflect and learn more about this.
Then the second reason is about a political dimension. It comes from the feeling of an unbearable injustice in our society. The legal and also social discrimination that people who do not fit our (whos?) heterosexual norm have to go through and life with are ridiculous, inaceptable and wrong. The pain that millions of people have to suffer while reflecting, understanding, accepting and then living with the fact that they are “just not normal” #wtf! – is unnecessary and harms our society as a whole. Not in many areas of politics the arguments are that simple and obvious. On the one hand that means that irrational behavior / believes define how the LBGTQ* is treated but on the other hand is also proofs that it is easy to convince somewhat rational beings. To me this is a very relevant question – how can we create a shift in society to achieve an understand that it is non of “their” business to judge others love, identity or sexuality. I have tried some things (see section previous experience) already and like to exchange on this further. Because if we cannot solve this – what political challenge are we ever going to overcome?
And the third reason I apply for this event is a social reason – I am a district councilor in Vienna. The work here is interesting. But everything takes forever and is all about solving very local problems. Do we need a tree here? Can we have a larger pedestrian walk there? Why are cars going that fast in this street? And why is there no crosswalk on that corner. What I am missing is the action, it is other young people. People from other countries. With other perspectives. I had the honor to attend the FYEG Wintercamp 2012 and it gave me exactly those things I had been looking for for a long time. Inspiring people to party with and to have intense discussions with – not only about the topic of the camp, but also about those things I think a lot about. How much can I reach in politics? How much can be reached at all? Is this the right thing? Should I be doing something else? Where and how can I improve? What works well in your country? I just enjoyed that very much. I wouldn’t have applied for this camp if it were my only motivation. But it certainly is a considerable part of it.
What are your previous experiences with the topic of the seminar?
I am quite into this thing. Besides mobility questions and net politics LGBTQ* (though I prefere the expression queer politics!) is the third topic I am really passionate about.
The whole thing started for me in 2008 when I did a semester abroad in Tucson, Arizona (USA) and stayed with a gay couple there. Kelly and Glenn became my host parents – and they did everything in their power to become my real dads as well (and they succeeded). Before I went I had never reflected my own sexuality, I had not (consciously) talked to gay people before, I knew nothing about the concepts of gender. And when I came back I started wondering why? How could 5 to 10 percent of the people I interact with day after day be gay without me knowing about it. I had a strong feeling of injustice. I found it wrong that people had to (or at least did!) hide their sexuality.
So I though about what I could do and I came up with a project in my school (2009 was that). I invited gays and lesbians to talk to 15, 16 year old teenagers. Students like me who had never though about and knew nothing about homosexuality, gender, sexuality. And of course they didn’t know any gay people either. In small groups they got the chance to (get in) “touch a real gay person” for once. Realizing that being gay does not have anything to do with the stereotypes we are confronted with in TV shows. That there is real suffering when people become true to their colleges at work or even family. That falling in love for “them” is as exciting as it is “for us hetero people”. And that getting your heart ripped in pieces does not only happen to hetero people. Over all the aim was to let them realize that there is just no difference between gay love and hetero love – that homo people are just normal people. Not even with necessarily different tast in bed!
The project was a huge success. The feedback I received was overwhelmingly positiv. Many people wrote that they had changed their opinion. That they were “pro adoption” now. Or that they had understood the harm that the legal situation does. That the have evolved to being homo-friendly instead of being indifferent or hostile. So I did the project again in 2010 and will hold it – fingers crossed – another time this year.
Other then that I can only refere to the hundreds of discussions I had in the last couple of years with (mostly stubbern) people about the issue (mostly legal questions). So I’d say I have a some experience on how to make people understand what this is about.
Also I have written a very personal, and to me very important blog article (in german) about why of course gay couples are good parents that has been read over 2000 times now.